This Brat’s Corner Of The World

I finally got spanked although I would have rather been spanked by “B” but I guess some play is better than no play. I am pretty sore as I sit here and write this but it’s something I have missed therefore I am in a pretty happy state right now. I have some pretty heavy welts and bruising but I think that’s because it has been five and a half months since I have been spanked ….and I mark easy regardless. Something about getting spanked makes me feel better ….not sure what it is but it’s like the whole weight of the world dropped off my shoulders and I feel at peace and less stress too. And the friend that spanked me did a very good job …this weekend we are getting togather for some more spanking play ….that should hold me over until I move to Ohio to be with “B”. It took me over a week to actually finally give in to being spanked by my friend ….I guess I just like to be loyal to “B” ….and I was trying to wait until we see each other again but I was so stressed out …and missing it so much that I finally gave in …he knows that her and I get togather for spanking play and he is ok with it but I prefer him to be the one spanking me!

He has a very hard time spanking me the way my friend spanked me earlier tonite. He would never put bruises on me the way she did ….it’s like he is afraid or something, not sure why because I haven’t figured him out that far yet. I think alot of it is because of the abuse I endured with my soon to be ex husband and he knows about alot of that and it bothers him. Not that I need to have bruises after a spanking but I would like to cry …and he has yet to get me to that point of flowing tears ….he has spanked me almost to tears but I am not quite there yet with him and that is where I want to be at in our spanking relationship. All I want from him is to not be treated special when it comes to spanking ….and so far in the sessions we have had he has treated me special ….I don’t like that….I can’t even feel his authority over me when he does that. I know he spanks others alot harder than he has spanked me ….so we will see how it goes when we see each other again although I have my doubts about it all.